sacrifices equals to stress??

school have been stressful since the very first week. trust me. the topics are getting tougher and more difficult to understand each day. i have a few breakdowns already and it isnt nearing the o levels even. see the pressure? lol.

and like what su told me, this year is the year to make a lot of sacrifices. no more long hours of tv. no more fooling around. and no more sleeping in class. so far these havent been that difficult to cope with. im still amazed though how the previous batch seemed to be so relax and start studying only when the o levels were nearing. i swear they are smart. some even told me "it's just january" yeah, i know. but its 271 more days to o levels too. and you know that time flies fast.

hence, my time now have been occupied with homeworks, textbooks and revisions. remedials have also started and that means long hours in school too.

facebook is super slow larh seh! i cant even see my own profile. boo. wait, or is it my computer? heh. okae, i dunnoe and i dont care. so since facebook wont cooperate with me, i guess i just blabber my nonsense here. well, actually i have nothing to say. heh. or is there soo much to say? haha, god im confused. anyway, finally im going out tomorrow. like at last larh! haha. gonna meet asha, k and su to do the ss and english oral. and maybe have a bitch fest too! yeah, haha. lolol.

oh anyway, i wanna watch newmoon. that day was soo anti-climax. it stopped halfway when it was getting to the best part. how irritating was that? very. lol. syaf, you owe me one! haha. =P kaekae, i guess i better stop before i write more nonsense here. =D

i can predict that it suck -.-

okae, so tomorrow is hari rayer haji. maybe to some its gonna be a fun day where families, cousins, get together and have lots of fun. but thats not the case for me. can you imagine that i actually have to go to pontian (a kampung -.-) to celebrate hari rayer haji tomorrow? im dreading it larh seh. i mean, i have to freaking wear a baju kurung the whole day and stay there under the hot weather. wow, sound super fun. -.- im still trying to find the perfect reason as to why my parents wants to go there so much. im not trying to be a spoiltcitykid who doesnt appreciate the rural area. but come on! i just dont want to. moreover, i dont even know half the people there. what am i suppose to do there for the whole freaking day tomorrow? and the best part of all, i heard that my cousin who is my age, is not going. great! no member, no nothing. life cant get better than this. i swear. -.-

waiting...

im still waiting for a blissful life. i mean, im bored to death sitting at home. there is simply nothing to do. okae, maybe there is, homework. urgh! come on! isnt there anything else? help me people! i have a routine now. wake up at noon, bathe, bathe my sister, clean my room, eat, vacuum the house. there, thats it. isnt it fun? -.- yeah right. bluehk. haih. even computer sometimes dont have that attraction. lolol.

im waiting to go for holiday. kl and genting! yeay! but that seems to be a long waay togo.1month .how long is that. super! so borededumdum. =(

BOO!

ahha. these pictures are soo long overdue. about 2 months? okae, not that long right? heh. but who cares. i still wanna post about it. this was when we celebrated syaf's birthday. ate at this nice restaurant and bloated ourselves. hha. oh, and there was lots of camwhoring too. =D thanks to rai's camera. anyway, im waiting for an outing like this again. haha. so ikans, when are you all free aites? =)

oh! and to k, su and asha, when do you guys want to have the movie marathon? =) miss you guys! =)

wow, the holidays is finally here. and guess what? i dont like it. haih. how not to like it? i have to freaking sit at home the whole freaking day doing well, nothing? lol. i seriously need some fresh air. to help me function properly. not that im not functioning at all right now. but i feel like im functioning for the sake of functioning. wait, am i making sense? lol. see, even i dont understand what im talking about half the time. haih.

anyway, to those who are wondering about my previous post, dont think too much about it. cos i myself have no explaination for it. its all one big mess in my head right now. i dont even know what i want anymore. im just confuse and i guess i can say, hurt. so well. yeah. it just pisses me off that i have to feel this when i can actually control myself. again, im not fucntioning properly. haih.

so, anyone up for an outing or something? and drag me out of this boredness and frustration? beep me aites peeps. love...

i dunnoe what im doing here. i have nothing much to post actually. but i just feel that my life is so fucked up. i dunnoe why. maybe im thinking too much about certain things, thats why. i want to be happy and cheerful always. smile and laugh like theres no problem whatsoever in this world. but thats hardly the case. its difficult sometimes to think rationally and maturely when all you want to do is hide under the blanket and weep.